Been so long since we've met.
But when we met, it was just that few minutes.
Am i no longer the one you used to dote on?
Am i no longer the one you used to share everything with?
I've already lost one. I can't imagine myself losing more of you guys.
We used to be so close.
I guess thats how the human race continues.
But its really difficult to move out of my own comfort zone where you guys though were all far apart but linked together in the heart.
Were the past just an illusion that i mistook it as facts,
or all along our relationship is already like that?
I rather believe everything was because we're moving on in our own lives and already starting to neglect than mistaking illusion as facts.
I just miss the old times so much.
Can i still be the one you dote so much on? (:

A big hello to all. I know it has been a long time since i've blog a proper post. ahha. School is opening soon. ): The next stage of life: Polytechnic. Honestly, i don't really look forward to it. I don't really like my course? I did appeal to the course i want, but ya i failed my maths. Nevermind, i will try to love my course when time comes. (: Landscape Architecture. HOHOHO. I think nobody can accept the fact i'm inside. I honestly don't mind, just don't like. Well i look it in a way like at least im posted to the course in my 12 choice of JAE.Just FYI, LA is my 8th choice.

Anyway, for the past few days/weeks/months, i've been shopping shopping and more shopping. Though add in a lil of slacking at coffee cafe and also sjab stuff.
Talking about SJAB stuff, tomorrow is one of the many NDP training! I'm gonna help out! But tomorrow is also my OTC interview. oh mannnnnnnn. G6, here i comeeeeee! hahahahahaha i'm just trying not to think too much. If you ask me not to be nervous, its difficult. I think whatever interview is it, i'll be feeling the same. Job interview blablablabla...
Anyway uncle Victor is back but going back on the 6th. Heard daphne is coming back in june. hope to see all of them soon. sheesh.

I realise i've changed. I didn't use to feel things this way.
Now i feel i'm being used.
After i've done what i'm suppose to do, i have to leave.
Have anyone ever ask me if i'm fine today? am i happy today? am i okay?
No, i'm not lonely.
I just don't like people around me to feel the same way as i do.
Enough of ranting.
Bye.





Just give me some space and time to be alone.

MAYBE, i said MAYBE. Maybe i'm taking it all just too seriously.

charmaine is my name.
also known as duck.
Seventeen going Eighteen.
i laugh at my own jokes.
i've got a temper that i can't control.
i'm blunt.
GIRLFRIENDS is love.
and oh, i hate copycats.
period.
xoxo.