I MISS BOTH OF YOU.

well actually i miss many people. currently i'm super busy with school because of projects and more projects. can never sit down and rest. i guess this is poly life?
I'm not the only one who is busy,
he is also very busy. tsktsk. haven't been recieving songs + never see him online for quite awhile already.

Anyway, went to nee soon camp yesterday because of some NDP recording. ya. VOLUNTEERED myself like weeks ago to go for it because i thought its a wednesday and prolly all of them are working + i don't have school on wed. Turn out, so many people went :/ + lotsa work on hand to do. If i were to know he is going i wouldn't have go because he is much more higher rank than me. After that he say he want to find some pouch thingy, so went north point to walk around with gary then mac. sat have to go back nee soon camp for ndp again. sheesh. i hope i can submit everything tomorrow so i don't have work on hand to do on sat + sun. I NEED MY REST OKAY. since tues i haven't been sleeping well. slept for 3hrs on tues, 2hrs ystd. today idk how. Hope i can quickly finish everything. hahahaha.

LASTLY, I MISS COWARD WONG. ok random. toodles:D

i think crystal and hongyao is @ auntie pauline's place playing mahjong because i heard the mahjong sound when i called crystal just now.
omggggg they went to try out the korean food there anddddd guess what, it has been monthsssssss since i've been to auntie pauline place. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
mahjonggggggggggggg. hand itchy! ):
Thanks to those ices i'm doing i got totally no time to even goooooo. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
wanted to go today with them! but went hortpark instead to do sketching. got no choice. ): friday is the date due.
DAMN, I THINK I NEED A LIFE. I WANT TO STOP DOING PROJECTS AND REST. ): i want mahjonggggg.
Wilson, when can we go over for bbq + mahjong? just 3 more weeks to holiday! yay!
i promise i will drop a tile again when the time is up. heh. :D
and won't drink when playing.
okay luh charmaine, START DOINGGGGG YOUR WORKKKK.
oh ya tomorrow going to nee soon camp. :/
bye.

Not a good day today. Unhappy with designs and i tore it up. Tomorrow will go to the hort park after school and do my sketching. prolly joe's kitchen after that i hope. yum yum @ tom yam soup+pineapple rice+kang kong! :D
i miss mahjong. haha.
and and and and and and THE ONE called me like an hour ago, and scolded me for not going for the msia trip? FOR FUCK. firstly, i don't even know i have ndp when i first heard about it and was kind eager to go for the trip. so now i know it and im like skipping it. and she told me to be responsible to say that i am not going. SINCE WHEN I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE? DAMN, secondly, its not even her problem? fuck! just because she wants the air con room and because of the lack of man because im not going and she's not happy with it. and thirdly, she hasn't even confirm that she is going. so why care so much. the trip won't make a difference without me. its a 100plus people KKKL trip. i've been to the ECP gathering and kukup trip already. it is just so boring.
and when she scolded me, idk why i just cried.
dad said" it's just a holiday, why is she taking it so seriously? what for you cry?"
mum said" what for you cry, small things also cry."
then aunt called. she best. she says "next time tell her that you don't want to talk to her, no need to cry" omg, why did i even cry? =.= stupid THE ONE. want to just slap her.
IANNNNNNNNNNN faster finish work and come home. i want to ranttttttttttttt! ):
okay now, end of ranting.
toodles. haha

TELL ME WHY I AM SO STUPID TO VOLUNTEER MYSELF FOR NDP? WHY AM I SO STUPID TO GO INTO LANDSCAPE ARCHITECTURE? WHY AM I SO STUPID TO GO FOR OFFICER COURSE. AM I STUPID OR IS LIFE SO HORRIBLE? I WOULD LOVE TO ENJOY WHAT IM DOING NOW BUT TIME WON'T LET ME BE. SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO PLEASE. ):

So long my love.
I guess this is goodbye.

love duck/xoxo

PS: @ AETOS family day i saw people shooting down rubber duckies.

Guess everyone is aware of the latest AWARE saga.
OMG! i just realise i did flag day for AWARE like i think last year. For my CIP points. AWARE vote of No Confidence. See the news carefully, to me its more like of a like power hunger people fighting. Was wondering why even my school decide to let us do flag day for AWARE? sheesh. I mean all the saga, people definately will lose like damn much confidence for AWARE why would they even approach AWARE again? and and and and and talking about charity, look at REN CI hospital saga when ming yi fa shi misuse the money. Previously was NKF ? Mean, people do such stuff, how will the public have confidence in donating? We don't talk about donars here, even me when i do flag day i don't have the mood the carry on doing it. Because you don't know if they will misuse the money? This year while doing flag day, this uncle commented "What for give them where they are not doing anything?". Okay admit it, this uncle uses his ass to think. I mean, what he mean by not doing anything? hello i woke up early in the morning to move my ass down bishan to do such charity work and i walk like so damn far just to collect money and i have to see your kinda black fucking face. Don't donate done! For making such comments, if i wasn't in my sp shirt i would have already talk back like what i did to the bus stop uncle @ queensway! DAMN! But why should i blame them where there are people in the society misusing money donated by the public for their own stuff. Right?
Okay, you must be wondering why am i ranting? Actually i just feel very angry that i did flag day for AWARE. hahahahahah then it somehow link to the SP flag day that uncle.
Anyway BirdPark was great. had fun. Went swensan for dinner with nineone-ers. Pictures soon. my blog is so dead because i am super busy!
Alright, birdpark again tml! toodles people!

Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever say it would be this hard.
I am going back to the start where i started off with nothing.
No broken hearts, no shedding tears.
Only smiles, laughters and occasionally upset moments.
Running in circles, chasing our tails.
Hanging on seems to be an bad idea.
I know i'll be fine. I just need that lil comfort and time.
But I feel stucked.
Baby, its not your fault.
Only mine, for falling so deeply in love with you.
You used to lead me on,
as close as we were before, as far as we are now.
love duck. xoxo

charmaine is my name.
also known as duck.
Seventeen going Eighteen.
i laugh at my own jokes.
i've got a temper that i can't control.
i'm blunt.
GIRLFRIENDS is love.
and oh, i hate copycats.
period.
xoxo.